Welcome to my site. I started this site because I want to share with the world my journey of healing my son. This site is all about AFFORDABLE healing!!!!!!!
I have gone thru dozens of docters, pediatricians, gastroenerologists and every kind of alternative health practitioner …. Only to be disappointed over and over again.
My sons level of chronic health issues was not something any docter/health practitioner I ever met had a clue how to treat.
It was only when I realized that the doctors knew nothing of how to help my son, and that I would have to become my son’s own doctor, that I started to recover him. This meant learning how to have faith in myself as a mother and human being. It was very hard to understand why I was able to learn things that most docters dont. The sad fact is that I have the number one interest of regaining my sons health. Most docters number one interest is making a profit first, and your childs health second.
My intention is to share what worked the best, what is the most economical, and what I have heard from other parents that helped their children.
You will hear me talk about God a lot in this blog and that is because it was God that gave me the strength to stay in battle. At one point I was under such spiritual attack I was sure either God or satan wanted me and my son dead…so I started praying to God to protect my son from the evil that was all around us …I started praying for strength to just make it thru the day.
most days I prayed for strength just to make it thru the hour and really really bad days… I prayed for each minute as it came…I literaly had no one and God carried me in those days…He gave me supernatural strength to make it thru things that should have sent me over the edge….
When it got to the point that I realized this world was nothing and God was all that was real…I started my way on healing myself and my son..
I would like to continue my research and continue to spread the word about health and God, and help as many children and people as possible. .
Disclaimer: legally, I am not “dispensing medical advice,” I am simply sharing my wealth of information.
today is day one for my latest jiuce fast. my son was calmer today..i remembered his dgize..rosemary and brain power. i ordered some RC blend which i hope will better fight his bacteria issues. i also ordered trama life. i am excited about this blend for my son as well as myself..really powerful oils..will keep everyone posted on how it goes. i gave in to grains and bought organic rice cereal..i will see if it cause any more problems..otherwise i will just give him a small bowl for his bedtime snack…i am also waiting on my bottle of ala so i can get back to chelating again..i am hopeful ..scared but hopeful for our future..also i am planning on ordering holly and rock rose..to help my son..
I have been thinking about starting a new blog..and ending this one. I will be recieving my new pendulum soon. i will be embarking on a new practice of learning to use my dowsing skills to better help my son and get in touch with my inner truth.My true connection with God. I am aware of my patterns of negativity.I want to create a new reality for myself and my son. I have been to trusting with the wrong people but maybe the more I can see my truth the smarter I will become. I have not been consistent with the essentail oils and my son. I wanted to mention that as not to confuse people about what works and what doesnt. the oils do work..but only when i use them regularly. i judt get tired of constantly giving supps to my son. i am definitly ready for a permanent solution to his anger issues! so i will be embarking on a new journey..searching deeper for the truth to my sons autism and for my own truth as well.
today has been one of those knock me to my knees kind of fucking days. my son dealing with anger anger anger…makes me want to curse curse curse…Actually these days are so emotionally devastating I want to scream at God. scream scream scream..i miss living in middle of nowhere..i could scream like that and no one but the coyotes could hear me..now i am in the city..and civilized people dont scream.
ok.so i know bacteria causes anger..also food infractions and mercury..all things that fuck with brain chemistry and cause inflammation.but i also believe there is a deeper spiritual reason..since i am not educated or rich enough to treat with homeopathy i am goin with the poor mans version to honeopathy..bach remedyd! there are a couple that nail my son spot on..holly for anger resentment ..imaginary offenses..there is swet violet to open the heart..alonng with heather and impatiens which i am giving him already..and i am noticing a big diffrence already..heather is for developing empathy for others and impatiens is to slow down the mine.i am trying so hard..i am scared and tired and..just pray things become easier..i just want to feel safe again..i mean for a little while..
so here is my next biomed post. me and my son are off grains..for the most part and we are both doing so much better. I ordered a bottle of ALA and dmsa and we are both gonna go back to AC chelation.this was the protocol that got my son 75% recovered. the essentail oils that are helping his brain is 10 drops rosemary and one drop brain power after lunch. and ten drops dgize with his smoothie in AM. i am still fighting bacteria so giving him goldenseal/echenechea mixture on empty stomach. also i am doing enzymes and bitters before meals. we are still livin in a motel..we still are finding enuff money every month for food and supps. I am amazed how the money appears every month and oh so grateful I am. I ..my son also realizes how lucky we are to have a safe place to live..my faith in God once again returning..I was watching a catholic priest on tv talking about how he cast out demons on a regular basis. for free. i realized how much strength and compassion it must take to do that and bam i felt my heart open up again..if their is that kind of love in this world then God is real..I am sure my faith will get shaken again..but I will fight to hold on to my faith ..since my son cant handle school i am hoing to be learning a home trade ..along with trying to sell my essentail oils I will be practicing dowsing..in depth for all things from health issues to lost items..I have been praying a lot about this AND if God does not approve that he would give me a sign..so that will be my latest adventure..
my wonderful fellow humans. I am going to do a post on biomed.gasp!
it has been forever it seems since i wrote a post on biomed. i am finding some peace. not that my situation is improved any..but i a praying a lot…in bitter and oh so sweeter way..i call out to my God and he restoreth my soul.so my son has been on a downward slope into regression.I was trying so hard to pretend we were normal i forgot we are not normal.my son cannot eat all the muffins and pizza even gluten free. so we are back to boot camp diet. that means no grains. this was his first day back on hardcore diet and already his mood is a 100 percent better..it is so hard to write on my phone so tomorrow i will do another post at library about diet and supps ..protocol i am planning to impelment. yes i am not so depressed anymore..it is wonderful..amazing what constantly throwing yourself to the Lord will do..hope you all are ginding uour own peace in this eorld of ours.
stress kills brain cells..also trauma keeps your words all jumbled up…i keep trying to write..i keep trying to write and my words just are not coming out..my mind ..my heart..i cant seem to process anything…and i desperatly need to..writing has always saved my sanity..it purged the poison..made sense of evil..mae me feel like i mattered..my pain mattered..but my words they are not coming out..so here i am again trying to write…i am on my phone and so i guess that doesnt help when you are trying to blog…i have been reading about the theory that jesus was an alien
..i am distrusting everything ..what if we are one big science experiment? What are we praying to really? I pray to a God that is pure love and has mercy for all things..but what if that God doesnt exist? I see all the crocodile tears and the puffed up christains so exalted in thier own eys..oh the good works they do..oh all the prayers and worship they do..and oh none of it is truely from thier heart..just a itty bitty actress playing on the biggest stage of all..when i see how prevalent hypocricy is in these walking talking parrokeets who them own selves they are unaware of thier true nature i just go wow. Justt as i see so much perversion in people i find myself wondering wonder about this God that i pray too..he made Man supposovly in his image…is hypocrisy part of that image??? I am so dissapointed in people..everyone has shown themselves to be something diffrent then what they are…and i am still fighting to go on and make a better life for myself and my son..in what..a fish bowl? A world full of insane people who dont know thier own true nature? If i ever needed a true God that is merciful it is now…I know so many people must be thinking the same..where is our God of mercy? Does he even exist..in my suffering i do pray for the people in the philliphines..i cant imagine what they must be suffering..and how they to must be questioning thier God..
find shelter.find childcare.find job. that has been my mantra. i found a room that rents by the week and my son has enrolled in a christainschool that is letting me make payments…on monday i will try and put a resume together and will look for work. i am having a lot of problems with my son. he is angry.i blame myself..i wish i could have given him a more stable life…i keep trying to hope that some good will come out of all of this..that me and my son can take tragedy and have it make us kinder more compassionate people…instead i am really depressed and my son is really angry..but thru it all things seem tobe falling into place…if i get a job..maybe i can relax a little bit.i know i need to grieve for my latest loss..and maybe that to will come in time..we are going to the new church the one that my son started school at..hopefully it will bring me some peace…this new town we relocated is actually really nice…there is still a lot to be grateful for thruout so much loss and betrayal in my life..but what i really want is to see God. i keep praying that God will show himself to me..i thirst for him..i eant to know this creator of love and truth..in so much lies and superficiality…i want to finish my book but get so mad when i think no one will want to listen to my story of autism..its not as neat as the tmr moms or jenny mcarthy..but i just keep praying God will let my story be heard one day..